a good hard look at me

so living alone has the weird advantage of being a little place where every thing and every change are wrought directly by you, (me) the live aloner. it really gives you clarity and the oppurtunity to examine things you do, without the interference of having someone else around to muddy the results.

here are some things i am learning about myself as time goes on:

-i use a lot of spoons. no ideas, no explanation on this one. we always used a lot of spoons, i just never thought much of it because there were 2 of us and somehow that seems like a good enough reason. but now that it's just me, i'm noticing there is still always a pile of spoons in the sink. whatever, i'm just saying i use a lot of spoons is all.

-i also use a lot of toilet paper. i drink a lot of water, and i love to poo. there's not a heck of a lot of wiggle room on this one, and very little shame on my end. i'm going to try conserving squares when it seems prudent to do so.

-i'm pretty neat. adam was pretty much constantly bitching about the state of the house. it's funny because now that he is gone and i have more room, and places to actually put all of my stuff and it's all put away. the one room upstairs is still a clothes hamper/closet/craft basket/work area pile of vomit, but it's just that one little room. who even cares ?? not me.

-i sleep better with piles of animals all over me. having dog and cat back in the big bed has really made a difference in sleeping. i have more room to spread out, but i can hear the assorted bodily functions of the dog, and the cat is usually on my back while i'm sleeping. both very reassuring, and it feels much like like back to "aaah" than the adjustment i thought it would be.

-i talk to myself: a lot. less so possibly since i started this blog, and sometimes i do pretend i'm talking to the dog or cat, but i'm pretty much just talking to hear myself talk. i think i am actually unable not to speak all the time, so it's a good thing i have the animals around as a beard. me != silent monk

-i like getting up damned ass early in the morning and doing work when it's all quiet and dark. i never really did that when adam was here, i'm not fool enough to get out of bed when there's a naked man in there, but now that he's gone i make very good use of the 5-9 period in the day and get tons more work done.


that's it. i'm still exploring, look back later for more findings.

and now, for your entertainment is a picture of my nephew *freaking* the fuck out because we dressed him up in a chicken costume and laughed at him. shit was funny!